You know what really grinds my gears? When I call the waiter back to the table to take our order when she’s just taken it ten minutes earlier. Or when I tell my husband the same story three times because I have no recollection whether I’ve shared it already or not. And when I start walking down the hall to do…something…and abort because I can’t remember what the hell it was.
While I’m not quite a humanoid Dory the fish yet, short-term memory loss is a PITA. Now that I’ve vented about that, here’s some good news. My brain MRI taken in November (you know – the results I forgot to post about) showed a significant reduction of radiation necrosis (dead tissue and other inflammation around the brain metastases). So Avastin is working to keep my brain chugging along (at whatever pace it sees fit, apparently). I’ll have another brain MRI late winter/early Spring and my neuro-oncologist predicts another three Avastin treatments total.
In other good news, I had a CT scan last week of my chest and abdomen to see how the rest of my body is doing, and it came back “stable” (i.e., no new tumors). Taking 20+ pills a day is keeping my headaches, nausea, and other symptoms under control, so at this point I’m staying as mobile as I can and trying to enjoy the holiday season.
My bucket list needs some adjustments. I know I won’t be writing that novel. I’ve lost too many words and others slip just far enough away to help me function but not flourish. And I won’t be planning a Niagara Falls getaway with my family or a romantic trip to Hawaii with my husband anytime soon. In fact, planning is a month-to-month and sometimes a week-to-week exercise, not a yearly one. But I’m here – not just for the holidays, but for (fingers crossed) Spring graduations too.
Tim and I hope all of you are having a healthy and happy holiday season!